以德报怨

Repay resentment with kindness.

It’s one of the hardest virtues I’ve had to learn. I’m not saying I perfected it because I still have those tendencies to shank a bitch. But what I have of this virtue is one of the reasons I can smile so much all the time. It’s hard but once you learn you accept an apology you’ve ever received, life gets easier. And if you can still keep being your gentle self, then you’ve done a good job with how you lived your life.

But if we loved again I swear I’ll love you right

I’d go back in time and change it but I can’t.

So if the chain in on your door, I understand.

I’m gonna murder everyone then drink their blood

:@

I usually don’t know what I’m doing but I’m usually okay with that

For the first time in a long long time, I don’t know what I’m doing but I’m not okay with it anymore.

You’re gonna break my heart all over again

And I’m gonna pretend I didn’t see it coming this whole time.

I know I care too much about work

But it’s familiarity to me.

Just like you.

And that’s why I always end up going back to you.

So my best friend told me a story

About how this small fat chick called her anorexic in high school and my best friend calmly informed her that it was an offensive thing to say. And there I was “THAT’S ALL YOU SAID?!” and she was like “well what else could I have said?” and I was like “I would have been like “well you’re so short and round, sometimes I mistake you for a bouncy ball but you don’t hear me saying that out loud.”” And people, that was the moment I realized how big of a bitch I actually am. Then I embraced it.

I don’t care if anyone else likes you

As long as you like you.

For the first time in like ever tonight

I FINALLY HAD A NIGHT TO JUST BE ME AND NOT GIVE A SHIT ABOUT ANYTIME AND STAY UP UNBELIEVABLY LATE WHILE BEING UNBELIEVABLY TIRED AND IT FEELS GOOD.  

It’s 4am right now and I am certain of 3 things

1. I hate studying.

2. I am screwed for the biology midterm.

3. I miss you.