Me and you
We were a pair made in hell.
Than forgive not enough.
But by then, it’ll be too late.
It’s that I can’t make you love me if you don’t.
But it’s your loss, not mine.
Because I could have given you the world.
It ain’t that easy for you to pack up and leave him
But you and dirty got ties for different reasons
I respect that and right before I turn to leave
Even though I fully know I shouldn’t.
I’m constantly stuck between “Train hard to eat hard” or “FOOD OVER HERE FOOD OVER THERE FOOD EVERYWHERE HOLLA”
My best friend wants to get a job as a barista and doesn’t have a resume prepared so I looked for mine to send to her to use as a reference. While doing so I found a file that said “NINE DAYS UNTIL I GET TO TALK TO XINLEI” that was written around the first and second week of April last year and I obviously was like “what, when did I write this…” and opened it. A little earlier than this time last year, Xinlei had her exams and we decided to not talk for 9 days so she can focus on studying cause when me and her talk, it lasts for forever. So I started a diary of how my days went without her and wrote in it how I would normally talk to her and left random bits of my life and work on it. Along with those random bits were stuff about this guy I liked at my workplace. And now here I am reading back on how and why I started like this guy who ended up being a douchebag most of the time and I’m just so speechless at myself. I mean if you read this thing, I sound so annoying and stupid. But I can’t get myself to delete it. I mean on one hand I do sound like a completely dumbass but on the other, it was written on such a innocent mindset. I mean it makes me sad on some extent, but I can’t get myself to delete it.